abrupt

its kinda depressing that shows must end so abruptly. and i never did know that actually grey’s anatomy would have such a good ending. the show kind of reminds me of ally mcbeal in the medical sense. but minus the crazy cartoons and antics. more over grey’s really deals with the human emotion and how complicated it is. its more than a medical drama.

abrupt is when you suddenly realise that its over. and its over for me. no more stay-ins. well maybe in the later part. but still i am happy that it is over. abrupt is also when something ends so suddenly that you have no chance to grief at all. you put it behind you for as long as possible and when you start to grief, you grief bad.

right now, the beepings are incessant. the typograhical errors are in huge proportions. the tappings are too fast but i cannot seem to slow down.

what is it to be done of a problem? i seem to having problem with my speech. pheglm seems to be stuck at the top of throat causing breathing difficulties. this is my death? is it. finding yourself is easy if you think it is.

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you know it used to be 11 weeks, now its nothing. its over. just like the blink of the eye. its so surreal how i have wished for this moment to come. and now that it has come i do not know how to deal with it. but i am content that this giant physical fiasco is over.

its gonna be back to the things i had lost. the contacts i have to catch up on. its a happy day

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crowd conditions are a major factor these days. everyone seems to be going around. the thing is, there are not enough to go around. can you imagine feeding the rats of the world with cheese? that would be a sight that i would not like to be invited to watch. somehow these people that seem to be going around, are not the welcomed species. they are the people that should be staying at home and hitting the books. and not getting overdressed and thinking they have got it all.

i think i have been bogged down with the dreaded cold. and i think part of it has to do with being in the rain and getting wet practically half the day before the weekend began. i do not decide whether or not i get caught in the rain. if i had a choice i would rather just stay in the comforts and not be push to situations where i get uncomfortable. all i am saying is that, don’t we wish we can bend things to our will or not have to conform?

the weekend was spent wisely. combing the streets that was closed sadly enough. so i did not get fed the right dosage of retail therapy. decided to go for commercialised stuff but was met with the sunday crowd on a friday. it all works well i guess. hit the clubs where crowd conditions were once again a huge and colossal disappointment.

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the beauty that is, sits upon her pedestal and cry. the fact is, it is easy to break someone, damage control however, should be excercised at once. the fingers are dirt-filled with tasty snacks.

then somehow i think that i should just stop registering to this sinking feeling that occurs every weekend. just because, it is not worth it. there is an end to the tunned afterall. if i just continue walking i might see light again. what was i thinking! there are always ends to tunnels. now if we could only juxtapose our life in such a way. oh the wonder.

negativity breeds human growth. that is a positive statement i’m afraid. when you inject yourself with huge amounts of negativity, you are in turn doing wonders to your brains and your body. why cheat yourself of such privileges and tell yourself that “things are okay”, when they aren’t. at the end of negativity is positivity. so do not starve yourself my dear friend.

pregnant with hope. deliverance should be disappointment. it works out that way. but not all the time. the insurgent shot of days will occur. some will be bad, some will be good. you will have to sort it out one by one. discern what was worth keeping and what should be in the dumpster. be strong, let them think what they think.

you should seek for a revolution in yourself, then will change occur.

the incumbent signs off.

peel and paste

the dryness of the week has finally passed over. the weekends are sweet reprieves that puts a smile on my face but keeps my eyes leaden with tiredness.

the affair was just simple but yet i could not carry up conversations. due to the tired nature of my body.

these two liners are rather boring.