i would like to.

i would like to get this all down before it slips off my mind and into oblivion. i would like to get this all down before i never get the chance to. i would like to just say the things that would perk people up. i would like to defend myself and not let people put me down. i would like to just say that this year has been absolutely mind numbingly pleasant for me.

it had its highs highs and lows lows. but it was still pleasant and changing for me. for i felt growth in me. and i am happy for that.

people have definitely impacted my life this year. i would never forget them.

okay this post is getting soppy.

here’s to my last post of the year.

happy new year. 2006 would be shit.

that above is the absolute best absolut ad.

yum.

astonishing

sometimes its really so astonishing how people can surprise you in unexpected ways. it was just a simple “out-of-nowhere” moment but it was very surprising and indeed very heartwarming. so thank you for wanting to be honest.

so merry christmas to all those who celebrate christmas. its my second post since my awakenment if there is such a word. spent the whole day pretty much in a sleepy stupor not knowing what drug has decide to cause this drowsiness. had the intentions of working but myself had permitted myself not to work. stayed at home the whole day. people had christmas eve parties. i stayed at home and fell asleep whilst watching tv.

it is just everything and anyone. no matter how you see it, you will still have to go through with what’s ahead or behind. your parents have given you life but what you do with it, they do not really have their says. they can only strive to give you what they can. what you do with your life is really, entirely up to you.

people are people. they come in and out of your life. its up to you whether you choose to keep them or not. have a good laugh, down a cold pint of beer. they will always be there for you to laugh.

i do not even know what this post is all about. should i entertain thoughts of why do i even have a blog?

merry christmas once again! may next year be full of shit!!

take flight

i have a huge thing for commercial airliners. i just like how they are built and all. right above it is a airbus a340-600. it is by airbus one of the world’s leading aircraft manufacturer. its a single deck aircraft with two main engines on each sides of its wings. its ideal for long haul flights. maybe its got to be my working in the airline industry, but this aircraft, under Singapore Airlines, is a luxury aircraft. Singapore Airlines uses this aircraft in its direct flight from Singapore to L.A. The interiors of this aircraft are just luxurious. there are just the right amount of leg room in between seats for both economy business and first class. it only sits about at least 200 passengers. it even has a snack bar equipped with a lounge area for passengers to interact with each other. its such a beauty.

anyways. days have been great just abit peeved witht he rushing of all the projects and a very unreasonable lecturer. phuture was packed. i felt like molecules.

merry christmas
happy new year.

ain’t no emoboy.

a case of you

okay, this weekend has put me into some kinda psychedelic funk. i have re-discovered some really good music through the movies that i have watched and through old music that new artist has remade. and of course realisations of revelations has lead me to discover rufus wainwright. i shall touch on that later.

you remember stevie nicks? i always knew her as an icon of eccentricities. i never really got into her music until i heard the corrs’s dreams. a remake of one of stevie’s songs. and i knew i had to find out for myself who this stevie nicks is. she is truly remarkable. she was kinda like a cyndi lauper but in a whole different league of her own. nothing much has been heard of her recently. the last i heard of her was on the practical magic soundtrack. would really love to see how would she intepret new music through her own sound.

how about joni mitchell? she is another icon of melancholy in my opnioin. in the writer’s world you have melancholic figures like sylvia plaith and virginia woolf. in the music world you would want to listen to joni mitchell for melancholia. recently i dug up one of her songs case of you. it appeared on the practical magic soundtrack. no guess as to what movies i have been watching. her lyrical prowess is very much evident in the song. with joni mitchell she weaves her words into songs which makes it more interesting. in a way where you can really relate to that song not only through its words but also its melodies.

what is this with rufus wainwright. my first encounter with this paticular artist was through the moulin rouge soundtrack. he did one french song which i thought was charming. what really got me to him was through ping’s reading of nick hornby’s 31 songs. and also through his sister martha wainwright. i am sometimes stricken by a bout of what i call “lazy music listener”. i would want to check an artist out but will never get to it until something nudges me to. so this was the case with rufus wainwright. i had gotten his song one man guy and felt it was a really potent song in today’s perception of religion. subsequently other revelations drew me to him. only someone knows i think.

this three icon of sorts were swimming in my head the whole sordid weekend. joni mitchell and stevie nicks kinda reminds me of what the past era used to be. this term has came into my head on how to describe them “freedom children”. they were sort of “freedom children” in their era. they pushed the boundaries of what they believed in and made a whole new kinda of music to the world. they were and still is in my opnion the building blocks of today’s indie pop culture scene. rufus wainwright represents a breed of artists who are in a way continuing their legacy.

this is what too many movies, snacks, free time spent with jess, and the weekend does to you.

spent.

retreats and realisations

back finally from the retreat of lacklustre accomodations but quite good company.

its quite funny that though we went there kinda knowning what was gonna happen to us we never did expect it to be that bad or horrid. okay, let me explain the situation. the day of our retreat started off with an early mornin wake up call from the parents. they dragged a very grumpy me out of bed into the car (after i washed up and all). then we made some minor detours, met up with the remaining of the group and sped off to our holiday destination. and sped did we.

the worst part of it all was that i did not pack any entertainment of sorts sans ipod, books or magazines. i was thus made to read the m’sian english newspaper. which was entertaining, to the minimal level. then there was that winding road that never really cease to wind throughout the whole journey that pryed me away from the only sort of activity there was to do on such long journeys: sleep. so we arrived after three hours of winding in and out, to this derelict looking chalet-styled resort by a beach that was yellow in colour due to the monsoon. we gaped, in unison and felt at once cheated.

we were promised good accomodation but never really got it. then like city kids of today we ranted and whined about the accomodations. and the the glaring lack of activities that we could do. day one was basically spent sitting around doin nothing and trying to “talk” to the locals. there was dinner which was quite a spread but still did not purge us of our boredom. sleeping was quite spooky. more details at jarrod’s blog: www.yourobligation.blogspot.com. we left after one night. nuff’ said.

okay before i leave an official outro:

don’t talk in plural
rhetoric is your most lethal weapon

words courtesy of shakira’s NO.
okay i know i have outsold.

the inconsequential being

really, its been awhile since i have cared for this blog. but oh well. consequences are such that it did not permit me to blog. and with an impending writer’s block, its no wonder why i have not blogged. i shall not compromise what i have and will say on this blog. i shall not feel that i should take back whatever i say on this blog. feeling a little revolutionary today.

okay. let’s begin. the sister is back! after a long one year absence. its a little bit of everything, upon her arrival. its a little bit happiness, a little bit of apprehension, a little bit of insercurity. but once all these are cleared out everything just falls into place. people appear to seem how they are but that is not always the case. she is well, radiant if i might add. she has that glow a kinda happiness i have not seen in her.

i am sure we all get to a point of our lives where we all feel inconsequential; unimportant. thus we turn to things to help make us feel better. for some its finding that someone, a companion, someone to assure them that its okay, everything will be alright. for some, its doing harm to their given body, abusing what they were rightfully given. for others, its just being rebellious attention seeking that gets them by. i am not blaming here. no one should be blame. we just have different ideas on how we should curb our fears and insecurities. what’s yours?

for me, it would have to be writing, reading and music. without these as my cartharsis, i would never have made it through tough days and happy days. these elements surround my life be it online or just reality. that does it for me.

well i have said enough. lunch beckons. projects due on monday beckons. back to reality.